Why did I move to Ireland?

Wow. I'm pretty stunned right now. Today was crap. I washed dishes for about two hours in a place I don't know, working with people I just met. Then it took me forever to get back to my dad and Claire's because traffic was terrible and the roads were so crowded with holiday makers and people wanting to go to the circus. I was almost in tears basically all day. I spent the evening uploading pictures to facebook and working on my driving exam stuff because my test is in the morning. Then, just as I was about to go downstairs to get a snack, my cousin came online. I haven't talked to him in about a year. I feel terrible about it because he and I are great friends, but it just seems like I've been avoiding a lot of people from America. I only talk to a few of them. That's a habit I need to change this year and try to sort out those relationships. I guess even though I care about them all so much, it was just easier to not talk to them at all rather than let them know how bad of a time I was going through last year. Anyways, Josh and I have been really good friends since we were little kids. We were always each others favorite. I think a big part of why we bonded so much is because in a way, we are the family scapegoats. I do admit that it is partially our own fault...being pranksters has it's consequences. His mom says that she thinks that Josh and I are the smartest ones in the family though and that's why we get picked on, we intimidate the others. Especially my grandmother. I'm not sure if that's true or not though...I can be pretty dumb sometimes. Anyways, Josh started talking to me, and I almost considered not answering and just going downstairs. Then I decided that that was a jerk move and that I should talk to him this time. Eventually, the conversation led to this:

2:50pm Josh
why did u move to ireland

2:50pm Louise
cause my dad wanted me to

2:50pm Josh
no

2:50pm Louise
I moved like a year ago...remember?

2:50pm Josh
God wanted u to
ur dad had nothing to do about it

2:51pm Louise
where is this coming from?

2:51pm Josh
God wanted me to say this

It was just...so random. I mean...why? Where did that even come from? We had been talking about school and what he was doing next year and then it was just that. But it got me thinking...all the stuff that led up to me being here, then CU, then Encounter, etc...but still, anytime I'm asked why I live in Ireland, I say it's because my dad wanted me to come. I mean, that's true, it is. It was important to him to keep the family together. I could have said no if I wanted. I could have lived with friends and went to OC and continued working at Dairy Queen. I really did not want to come here or have anything to do with it. But I came anyway. I often ask myself why. I often wonder how my dad wanting me to was possibly a good enough reason for me to give up my life and my friends and almost everything that was important to me. But maybe it was more than that. Maybe it's time to start giving God a bit more credit.