I Am Me: When being someone else becomes too much

Right before leaving for Encounter, I noticed that I was starting to get a bit snappish and defensive around my dad and Claire. It's almost as if I expect everything they say to be a criticism or a complaint and so I instantly take the defensive and try to make sure I am right. Even though I noticed this before I left and thought about it so much and wanted to try hard to stop, I can't seem to. I could make tons of excuses here and say it's because I'm tired or something, but honestly, it's not. I guess it is just something I have grown to expect and so now I'm just being a jerk. It needs to stop. Instead of making things worse I should be trying to make them better. It's just not cool. This is definitely something I need to work a bit harder on.



I'll try to write something substantial and about the trip later. I'm just so tired right now it's not even funny. Tired and frustrated and something else. I guess in some ways, as I said in our debrief, I still feel like "soup".