thinking too much?

I feel like I can see everything and I know what's going to happen and it's completely obvious. And then I can see myself and it kind of scares me, but I don't know why.

And my throat gets like a lump in it and my chest tightens up like it always used to when I used to get panic attacks a lot.

And I can remember tons of stuff that I never normally remember and it kinda scares me.

And then I remember dreams that I have over and over again and they finally make sense, but the more I think about them, the less sense they make.

And then I think about all of my friends and I can't figure out if I'm being a good friend or a bad friend and some of them I can't figure out why they like me so much and others I can't figure out why they don't.

And everything I can't do seems easy.

And everything I can do seems hard.

And everything that's simple has a complex answer.

And everything that's complex has a simple answer.

And I never quite know where I'm going to go from there.