I just want you to be happy.

Sometimes I really do wonder what I am to you. Your best friend, someone to talk to when times are rough, just another dumb girl. I used to think I knew what I wanted. I really did. Maybe I did know what I wanted, maybe it just changed. But what I really want...I want you to be as happy as you possibly can, whether that is with or without me. If it was my choice, I'd keep you around forever. I would. Through anything, no matter what. You know that. And to be 100% honest, I think you know more than I give you credit for, but sometimes it's easier to pretend you don't know, to pretend you don't understand. You know, I'm writing this, hoping with all my heart that it's something you will never ever see. Cause you will know it's about you. There's no question about that. There is nobody else it could be about. You know how I feel. And...I know how you feel about that :/. It's just...sometimes the way you talk to me, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to think. The way you phrase things, the things you do. But that's ok. Everything will end up the way it's supposed to. One day I will look back on this and laugh. I'll visit you and your family and everything will be ok :) It will be how it's meant to be. And you will be happy. That is all that's important :).