Maybe One Day

My friend Josh read my blog entry from a couple days ago, and it inspired him to write a song about me :) I liked it and wanted to save the lyrics, so here it is.



Maybe One Day

Sometimes I really do wonder what I am to you... I used to think I knew what I wanted... Maybe I did know what I wanted, maybe it just changed....

Everyday I wake up alone, wish you were with me
Every time I call your phone, I hope you miss me
I hope that you want me like I want you
But I think you don't, I'm on this road
A trail of sorrow and misery when I think of you
I fail at trying to live without you, I doubt you
Would ever want me, so I think fallacies
About you hatin' me and I want to cry
But there just aren't enough tears in this world
And it breaks me down inside, just to be your girl
I'd always try so hard to be the best in your eyes
I know you will be my demise so why do I try....

It's just...sometimes the way you talk to me, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to think. The way you phrase things, the things you do.

The way you talk, sometimes I feel you want me
Other times, it hurts, seems like you snub me
I don't understand whats goin' on behind your eyes
But if you let me in, I'd help you, I'd fight for a night
Just being with you, just seeing you, sleeping next to you
I love you so much that if you knew it would wreck you
I hope it ends the way it should, but I'll never know
If you don't let me in now, I've helped you grow
Now help me live, help me hope, help me breathe
Finally realize what you mean to me, hold me as I sleep
I need you, I hope you need me, please believe me..

One day I will look back on this and laugh... It will be how it's meant to be. And you will be happy. That is all that's important...